Friday, January 4, 2008


So I took Brok in for his normal 9 month well baby today & it wasn't what I thought at all... He weighed in at 18lbs 11oz which is only 2lbs in the past 3 months, nothing to really worry about though because he went from 27inches in oct to 32inches today... but the most shocking thing about the whole ordeal was that the doctor told me that Brok is borderline Autistic... he does this thing with his hands when he gets excited, he squeezes his fingers in and out, he still won't hold a bottle (though we think that is more stubborness becasue he did it a few times today), he refuses to try to crawl or creep (he hates his stomach), he also is content to play alone & will fixate on something such as a hot wheels car for long periods of time & he won't finger feed. She also said that he doesn't babble (like mama or dada) and that he should be able to pull himself up to standing at something. But what makes her say borderline is that he is very social, he will look at you and make eye contact & smile, he wants to walk so bad, he will if we hold his hands, and a few other things that I can't really remember. I really don't know what to think. I know he is behind on things but seems like a normal kids to me... I also can't help but to think that somehow it's my fault that he is behind... Like if I had tried harder to get him to crawl or to hold his bottle... So anyway, now he is going to have a home evaluation where some specialist is going to come into my home, watch him, interact with him, who knows what & tell me if he needs their help or if I can help him & then at his year appointment in march we will regroup & see if things have gotten better... So pray for him! & for me for the strength to get through it all!!!


Duffy's said...

Hey Ash I am sorry I hope and pray everything is Have you heard anything else... well I have one now it is so i am here if you need anything